Wow, here is a wonderful
but heartbreaking love letter, I have found in a park yesterday. It was left under a park bench as if this woman wanted at least someone to read about her feelings. Hmmm, if they are meant to be, I hope they
will get together at the end. In any case, just
beautiful words...
So many things on my
mind and yet, nothing really makes sense to me. All my thoughts are empty. Only
he is on my mind. His face is in front of me, his big beautiful warm eyes that
carry so much love and pain are all I can see in the emptiness of myself. It
pains me not to be with him. Now that god has showed me his face again, now that our souls have finally found each other's half on earth, nothing else
makes sense without him. It's our destiny to be together. I hope, he will feel that, too. "No one but you". No other, but your eyes. I want no other soul to dive inside the depths of me but yours." So much pain of separation, I feel.
My soul is crying with dried-out tears, as his ecstasy is missing. He is my
ecstasy. Are we two pillars of the same house or are we one? I want to merge
with him. I want to flow and melt together right there without and within. This
state of division is hardly bearable, unnatural, he is me and I am him. I am
going crazy, but let me be.
If we can't be together, oh
god, please make me be strong enough to see the whole beauty of your world. Let me
not wither like a flower without his sunshine, without his water, dying slowly
of a lost soul-love. Instead, let me see your love in everything that surrounds
me and let this love be sufficient for my heart. For my deeply longing ill mind
tries to seduce me with sharp claws into sins, eager to rip out my heart
in an instant when I look away, making my soul a slave to a dark land where you
will leave me on my lost path to you.
I start to understand
Romeo&Juliette's unendurable pain. Let me drink tonight as if this painful
night of love never happened and yet I know, it will be written down in the
books of the universe.
I love you. With all my
heart.
(translated from German into English)